Healing is a journey

How beautiful it is

after everything that has happened,

you have learned the art

of the release.

You have learned what it means

to let go

in a lifetime

filled with unknowns.

It has not been an easy journey for you

and it so hard to make sense

of all you had to go through,

but I just hope you know

you do not have to.

You are allowed to be at peace

no matter the uncertainty you leave behind.

You are allowed to keep talking things out,

you are free to keep taking this day by day

knowing that as you learn more and more of who you are

you are wrapped in endless grace.

You have been through so much,

but there is still more ahead of you,

and with every breath you breathe,

Light will continue to guide you.

So go on,

go on,

go and take

that deep breath

let it remind you

it is okay

to take this

step by step

Healing is a journey,

a journey you did not ask to go on,

but you are traveling right along

and that alone, is everything.

So keep your eyes open,

keep your heart open, too.

This journey is filled with a thousand lessons to learn,

but also abundant Love that shines through.

And it does not matter where you have been

even as recent as yesterday.

You are free to experience a beautiful, meaningful life

right here, in this moment.

And I know you haven't always seen the greatness

within yourself,

but that does not mean it is not radiant within you,

your courage,

strength,

beauty,

are still

shining through,

even when it is not apparent to you.

Even when it is not apparent to you.

So when you look in the mirror

I hope you can trust

there is more to you

than what you see,

and you are allowed to pause

and merely be

knowing you are radiant

with strength

and beauty

you can still

choose to believe

in the deepest

depths of your soul,

even when what you see

seems faulty

and fragmented,

deep within,

you are whole.

Sincerely,

Morgan Harper Nichols

Thanks for reading! And as always, each of these was written to someone in particular and sent to them before I shared them here. - Morgan Harper Nichols

Gratitude for the little things
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And while you are waiting, may you continue to have gratitude for the little things. The way the sunlight is still pouring into the windows matters much more than you know. The way that you have been able to keep breathing, day after day, after all these years is a sign of strength and courage. Even while you’re waiting for bigger things to fall into place, may you never take the little things for granted. Let yourself have gratitude for little things and perhaps you will begin to find that the small things have greater value than you were originally able to see.

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You are where you are meant to be

You are where you are meant to be.

I spent the longest time trying to think of the right words to place on these walls. Two weeks ago, we welcomed our son into the world, and leading up to that, I knew that I wanted to write something for his nursery. However, as I started to paint and we drew closer and closer to his due date, I kept coming back to these words: "you are where you are meant to be."

And even though I originally wanted to write something new, I am so glad I came back to these words. I was certain this was a truth a wanted our little Jacob to know, but in the past two weeks since giving birth to Jacob, he's has been the one teaching me "you are where you are meant to be," too.

He is already teaching me to take things slow. To not be so afraid when things don't go according to plan. To know that there if grace for the moments where I haven't had rest and I'm not able to do the things I used to. To walk a little slower and move a little slower as my body slowly heals. He is teaching me to be. Just be.

I want him to grow up knowing he is where he is meant to be, right here, on this grace-filled journey called life and I am grateful for him teaching me that very same thing.

- Morgan

P.S. I want to try and start sharing just a little bit more of my story here (maybe once a week), in hopes to share the thoughts and stories that are woven into the art and poetry I share. Thanks for being here.

And thank you to @evolurbaby for gifting us the Waverly Collection for his nursery…from the moment it landed on our doorsteps we have been so grateful and also, impressed with quality, and how well it blended with the room! We truly do cherish it. Thank you.

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For the one who is heartbroken

For the one who is heartbroken: You have invested so much into this, and put so much on hold, only to see it fall apart just when it seemed like you were finally getting into a rhythm. I hope you know most of all that it is okay to feel what you are feeling right now, and it is also okay to trust and believe that you will not feel this way forever, even though it may seem this way.

And if ever there is a moment where you start to feel like you should not be heartbroken over this, know that things like this take time to heal from. You poured a lot of time and a lot of love into this, because like you said, this was a different kind of connection. So I hope you know it is okay if you are sensitive to the unraveling of the ties between you. And I hope you also know this: this heartbreak and this sudden change of course does not have to hinder you. It does not have to hinder you from living, breathing, and carrying on in the direction of where you were meant to be. Yes, this present season is clouded with mystery and changing things, but you are changing, too, in the most beautiful, grace-filled ways.

You have been through so much. You have traveled hours upon on hours to try and make this love work. You have given day after day, trying to keep this alive. It’s hard to see it go away. It’s hard to see things change. But it’s also possible to believe even here, there is still more ahead of you.

I know you have seen too many people come in and out of your life, and you were hoping this time for something different. You were hoping this time, it would last a little longer, hold on a little stronger…and perhaps, this is what makes all of this just a little but harder. It’s what breaks your heart a little more. But even then, I hope you can see that:

the fact that you have lived

to tell the story

is a sign of a hope and courage

that has always been within you

and is only growing stronger

with every brand new day,

reminding you

there is a way

to slowly make it through this

to slowly begin to believe,

“perhaps,

even here,

there is more to my story

and more to me

and what’s been broken

will not hinder me

from being led

where I need to be.”

Sincerely,

Morgan Harper Nichols

It will be different when the Light pours in

This year, you have already had your share of your worries and doubts, and things you have not been able to figure out, but I just hope you are able to hold onto this truth: Light is still pouring through. You may not feel like you see Light in the way you used to, but I promise you, there are still all these little places where Light still comes pouring in, reminding you again and again that things are still coming to life here, in the world around you, and deep within. So keep trusting. Keep believing. The mere fact that you have felt morning light pour in through the window and onto your skin means something. You are alive. Through it all, you are alive. Last year did not hold you back. You had not been kept from being led where you need to be. — Morgan Harper Nichols

Note: Morgan is currently on maternity leave for the next few weeks so responses may be a little slower! You will still see scheduled posts here, and via her daily email, daily text, and the app. Find links to everything at Morganharpernichols.com.

Pursuing peace


Pursuing peace is the ability to find rest within in the present moment even when you do not know what is going to happen next. Peace is realizing that even without knowing, and even in the waiting, you are free to breathe deep. This does not mean that you should stop trying to move forward and not do anything, but it does mean that as you take each step, you begin to realize that your life is not a sum of outcomes. Your life is a journey and you were meant to learn something with every step...even without knowing what comes next.


We live in world that is filled to the brim with immediacy. If you are not moving as fast as you possibly can, you might be disregarded. If you do not "peak" at a certain age, then you might be overlooked. This is very dififcult pressure to live with, because no one wants or needs to be excluded in this world, but yet, if you have to take the longer route, or if you have to wait a little longer than everyone else, you might just get left behind.


Please do not let this these fears take anything away from your peace. You are still free to slow down and breathe deep, no matter who or what is rushing you. You will not be able to finish the race if you are not able to pace yourself. You will not be able to come alive to what's to come if you do not take moments in this present season to rest. The future will arrive when it is meant to arrive but there is no way to rush it any further along. It is so hard to wait. I know, it is so hard to wait. It is hard not to feel like it is a setback when you cannot move forward in the way you want to. It is hard to watch others pass you. So let it be peace that reminds you: breath by breath, you will make it through, and when it comes to what was meant for you, you have not been left behind.


Sincerely,

MHN


Note: Morgan is currently on maternity leave for the next few weeks so responses may be a little slower! You will still see scheduled posts here, and via her daily email, daily text, and the app. Find links to everything at Morganharpernichols.com.

you have not missed out on what was meant for you

I cannot tell you when it will be “your turn” or when you will finally find the love or find the peace that you are longing for, but I can tell you, as long as you are breathing, there is still more in store. I know it is hard to believe when it you have to watch others get the answers and the opportunities that have been praying for yourself, but I promise you, no matter how great this season looks for them, you are no less worthy or deserving than them. Your story is going to look a different from here. In fact, it always has. You have always been the one to keep treading, on this narrow, winding path.

You might have to wait a little longer and you might have to give a little more to finding joy in the little things, but none of this will hinder you from traveling this inevitable journey from being led where you need to be.


Trust in the process.

Trust in the process.

Things are going to look a little bit different here, but there is no reason to fear. Remember all the things you did not know last year, and still made it through? Remember how you continued to laugh and listen to the music despite all of the heartbreak that found you?

The same grace you found in that season is still with you today. Even while you watch others succeed. Even while you wait. You have not been abandoned. The mere fact that you are breathing is a sign that you are connected to this life.

I know it’s hard to watch them go on and live out the answered prayers that you have been praying for, for years. But I hope that you can still trust: there is a reason you’re still here. You cannot see it, but you can trust that Love is still available here. Peace is still running wild here. No matter your uncertainties or your fears. – MHN

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This is an excerpt from this week’s series ‘Trusting in the Process’ in Morgan’s iPhone app ‘Storyteller!’ Click the link in the bio and click ‘App’ for all of the details on how you can subscribe!

Also, Morgan is currently on maternity leave for the next few weeks so responses may be a little slower! You will still see scheduled posts here, and via her daily email, daily text, and the app. Find links to everything at the link in the bio.

Your failures do not define you

I cannot tell you what will happen if you take the leap or not, but I can tell you no matter what happens, you will learn. I can tell you that no matter what, you are going to look back and see what you could have done differently, and how you can apply it to whatever comes next. There is no way of knowing if you are going to fail or not (by whatever your definition of failure is), but you can choose to believe that in the same way your worth is not defined by your successes, your failures do not define you either.

Your failures are a part of the story, but they are not the entire story, and they should never make you feel that you can’t take a step back and see the greater story that is unfolding. It is okay if every chapter and season of your life evokes different emotions, and leads to different lessons, because it’s not only your best moments that will teach you, but everything else that led up to it, too.

This is why it is so much more valuable to pursue wholeness over perfection. You will never be able to do things perfectly, but you will be able to do them honestly. Don't just look at the failures. Look at the whole picture.

Even when you are charging forth and you are doing what you love, there will still be moments where you struggle to see how it will all come together. But it is in those moments of struggle, where the fear of failing is hovering over your shoulders that you can choose to keep remember the whole picture. You can choose to create work that is honest and true. Even if it’s not your “best” work. Even if the end result looks nothing like you thought it would. It’s a part of the greater story of your life.

Failure is a part of the story, but it’s not the whole story. They are a part of a greater landscape that it might take a lifetime to see.

Your successes do not define you and neither do your failures, so be mindful of how much time you give to them. Gather lessons from the times you fell and see them as a part of the story you tell. See them as the way you grew in wisdom, and how it was all a part of the process of you becoming who you were meant to be.

Sincerely,

Morgan Harper Nichols

Note: Morgan is currently on maternity leave for the next few weeks so responses to messages, comments, and emails may be a little slower! However, you will still see new scheduled posts here, and also via her daily email, daily text, and her iPhone app. Find links to everything right on the front page of her website: MorganHarperNichols.com

5 short reminders for the day:

5 short reminders for the day:
1. You belong here just as much as anyone else.
2. Giving your all doesn't mean you have to DO it all, and you’re allowed to pace yourself.
3. Even when others don't understand what you’re creating, that doesn't mean what you’re creating isn't meaningful.
4. Even though today is filled with so many things to do, that doesn't mean it can't be beautiful.
5. Do your best today while remembering: your value is not attached to what you accomplish.

Sincerely,
Morgan Harper Nichols

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Note: Morgan is currently on maternity leave for the next few weeks so responses to messages, comments, and emails may be a little slower! However, you will still see new scheduled posts here, and also via her daily email, daily text, and her iPhone app. Find links to everything right on the front page of her website: MorganHarperNichols.com

While you are waiting

While you are waiting, you are not merely waiting. You are growing in your capacity to receive what was meant for you in the right timing. You are growing in your capacity to learn what you need to go in order to prepare you for where you need to go. There will be moments, days, or entire seasons of your lives where you feel like your time is being wasted. You will feel the weight of the stagnant waters swarming around your ankles that keep you from moving forward. But I promise you, no matter the progress you have not been able to see, something more is happening. Beneath the surface, you are still growing, and being prepared for where you need to be.

And perhaps it will be here in the waiting

you begin to see:

you are not just growing

for the sake of growing

but you are growing

in your capacity

to receive:

the wisdom

the courage

and the grace you need

to live in the present moment

and be strengthened

for future things.

Perhaps this time within the waiting

is creating the space you need

to learn what you need to learn

to arrive where you are meant to be.

Think about where you were five years ago. Think about how you did not know you would make it through all the things you made it through, and how, when it seemed like nothing was happening in your life, and you were just waiting, you still grew. You still rose above. You still make it through. And even though you cannot see it, you are still growing in this season, too.

I cannot tell you how long you will have to wait, but I can tell you that you are being prepared for what's to come breath by breath, day by day. I can tell you that in this present moment, you are still free to trust that beneath the layers of doubt, worry, and fear, something beautiful is blooming here. And even though you cannot see it, that does not mean it is not real.

So open the morning windows

and let The Light pour in.

Receive this beautiful truth:

Yesterday Was Not The End.

Yes, you are still waiting,

but you have made it another day.

There is so much that lies before you

and you are still well on your way.

Sincerely,
Morgan Harper Nichols

Note: Morgan is currently on maternity leave for the next few weeks so responses to messages, comments, and emails may be a little slower! However, you will still see new scheduled posts here, and also via her daily email, daily text, and her iPhone app. Find links to everything right on the front page of her website: MorganHarperNichols.com

I hope something beautiful happens for you

After everything you have been through, I hope something beautiful happens for you.

I hope that you wake up someday soon and see that after all this time, the wait was truly worth it. I hope your heart is open to the unexpected, and the possibilities of what might be, even though you are currently facing an endless amount of uncertainty.

May this be the season of hope...unbridled, audacious hope that you feel deep down in your bones. Even when it doesn't make sense. Even when it feels childish, naive, or too innocent. I hope you can still believe in The Maybe, The What If, and My-Time-Has-Not-Been-Wasted. I hope you can believe in redemption. Possibility. And what you thought could only ever be a dream.

After everything you have been through, I hope something beautiful happens for you.

Because so many years have gone by and you did not know you would have to wait this long. You did not know you would to be this strong and so many holidays and birthdays would sweep by you like winter winds. But every morning after you woke up after one of those days was a sign of your strength. Every breath that left your lungs, every laugh that filled your belly, and every song that graced your lips...all of it...absolutely all of it was a sign of your strength.

After everything you have been through, I hope something beautiful happens for you. I hope you look back on this season in awe of the unexpected, seeing how so much came together in ways you never thought it could. Because somehow, through it all, life still managed to be good. Meaningful moments still fell in place when there was so many things unknown.

I hope you continue to find a life worth living right here in the present moment, with a heart wide open and ready to receive the possibility of what you could be. I hope you find that the wait was not for nothing and all of it was preparing you for something, and that even though you have been here so long, not a stage of your growth has been missed.

Sincerely,

Morgan Harper Nichols

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Note: Morgan is currently on maternity leave for the next few weeks so responses to messages, comments, and emails may be a little slower! However, you will still see new scheduled posts here, and also via her daily email, daily text, and her iPhone app. Find links to everything right on the front page of her website: MorganHarperNichols.com

You are worth the time it takes to slow down, be still, and rest.

If there are days where you feel

your body is too tired

to fill the room with laughter

and good stories

in the way

your heart wants to,

it is okay

to not be

all you feel

you have to be

for everyone,

and to focus on breathing,

and being,

knowing that even when you are quieter

and your smile comes a little slower

you are not empty.

you are not any less significant.

You are a traveler on a journey

who is simply in need

of rest

in the arms of the kind of peace

where she is free

to just be.

You are worth the quiet moment.

You are worth the deeper breath.

You are worth the time it takes to slow down, be still, and rest.

There are times where you need to hit the ground running and there are also times where you need to rest. You have spent over a decade of your life trying to keep up with the pace of everyone else, making intentional times to set goals to aim higher, to go further...but tell me, how much intentional time have you given to rest? To breathe deep, even when there are things to do, and realize that every single part of you needs to slow down and just be for a while? Your body needs it. Your heart needs it. Your mind definitely needs it. I know you feel like knowing it all and doing it all is what’s being asked of you, but I promise you, even then, you have to slow down and take care of yourself. Not everything has to be figured out tonight. Not every list has to be punched through this week. Prioritize. Minimize. Realize: You are not selfish for doing this. You do not have to be productive every moment. Yes, you are a hard worker, and yes, you are “giving your all,” but may never forget to give your all to rest, too. You need it. You really do. Tomorrow will come when it comes. The future will be here when it is meant to be here. But for now, you are here...and you are free to rest in this space.

- Morgan Harper Nichols

what was meant for you

You have known what it means to be the second choice...and I hope you also know what it means to step into the Light and know that you are worthy of love just as you are...and more than you were meant to be ‘chosen’ by someone, you were meant to be who you were meant to be, and whoever sees the Light within you, has noticed a beautiful thing.

I know you desire to know love, but I just hope you know that you don’t have to wait around for it. I just hope you know you don’t have to wait to be noticed or chosen by someone in order to feel beautiful or to know that Light is shining through you. There will be people who see you for who you truly are and there will also be people who are too busy or preoccupied or just don’t have the time. But their lack of ability to see you is not a reflection of you or your worth. The state they are in will not hinder you from being led where you need to be, no matter how well you know them or how connected you feel to them. You will still bloom in the way you were meant to, no matter who does or does not notice you.

You are still allowed to believe in what is greater than you, and what is beyond you, no matter the times you have been rejected, betrayed, or letdown. You are still allowed to live a meaningful life even if the love you have to give was not returned.

You may have moments where you feel the sorrow of what happened all over again, but even then, you are still free to believe: things won’t always be this way.

And even when you believe that there is a greater plan, it is okay to lift your hands in surrender, and exhale: “I do not understand,” while still believing in the depth of your soul, that everything will come together in the way it is meant to.

Continue to lean into endless, boundless peace...let it shine over your unsettled thoughts, and remind you, you are still free to breathe here, as you wait for you what’s to come.

Because I promise you, there is more to come. As long as you here, there is more to come. And your future might not look exactly how you thought it would, but perhaps it will be even better. Perhaps in the same way you have been surprised by Light in the past, there is still time for you to be surprised in the future. And maybe you will find that some of the things you hoped for were only a hint in the direction of what was actually truly meant for you.

Sincerely,

Morgan Harper Nichols

 

There is more to come

It is hard to let go of the way things were, but you are going to find new rhythms. You are going to make new memories. You are going to have new experiences that will be nothing like the old ones and that is okay. This is a part of change. And in time, you will begin to see that change was necessary, and perhaps it can even be beautiful.

Hold onto your memories while also knowing these present moments will soon be memories too. Cherish them. They may not seem like much, but years from now, they will mean more than you realize right now. Years from now, you will be so glad you chose to make the most of where you are right now, even in the moments where you were missing the way things were. You will be glad you chose to see that even in the sorrow of what would never be again, there was still this childlike wonder to go chasing where Light poured in.

And even when you are learning to be present in the moment, you do not have to be afraid to cherish what was. Moving on is hard. Starting over is hard. But you don’t have to brush over these feelings because you think that you have to “grow up” or have this figured out by now. You are allowed to slow down and express gratitude for what was, while also actively living with the hope that there is still much more to come.

Things are going to be different here. They are absolutely going to be different here. Allow yourself to believe that "different" can also be beautiful. You can still learn what you were meant to learn, grow the way you were meant to grow, and meet the people you were meant to be. As long as you are still living, there is still time for you to have a meaningful life beyond what you have been expecting.

Sincerely,

Morgan Harper Nichols

As always, this was written for the one who sent me their story. 💌DMS are open. Stories are kept private, and I always send you what I created for you before sharing it elsewhere.

You are free to start anew

I hope the best for you.

I hope that in these raging seas

you can still know you are worthy

of finding your way safely to shore.

Because after all you have been through 

you are worthy of more:

more peace

gentleness

Love

Light,

more grace to know

here in the chaos,

you can still be alright,

and you are free

to start anew

no matter what lies

behind you.


So perhaps this could be the season for starting over. Even in the most subtle ways, maybe this is where you begin to welcome change...change that reminds you what it means to brave, to step out into the unknown, without knowing what tomorrow holds. And to pay attention, pay dear attention, to the matters of your heart, knowing you do not have to have everything all sorted out before you see today as a brand new start. 


And you might just have to take the leap. You might just have to choose to see: where you are headed next is going to be filled with uncertainty. There will be highs and lows. There is will be new unknowns. And there will also be a thousand opportunities to learn and to grow. And you will look back and realize that even when you were afraid, you chose to brave. You chose to open your heart to the possibility of what you were meant to learn each day. 


And from one season to the next,

you learned to embrace the process

with a heart set on distant shores

in pursuit of something more.


Keep looking where the Light pours in. Keep choosing to believe that things do not have to come together perfectly in order for you to experience peace. Make decisions that lead to growth. Make decisions that remind you that life can be meaningful and valuable even though it is far from perfect. Because things are going to get better. You are going to heal in the way you were meant to. Even in the chaos of it all there will be a billion little ways that endless Light will continue to find you. This does not mean the road ahead will be easy. You might still have to face that vast ocean of unknowns again. But Light will still pour in. You will still be free to take it day by day. You will still be on your journey. You will be wrapped in grace.

Sincerely,

Morgan Harper Nichols

You have not seen all there is to see

The uncertainty is overwhelming, and it leaves you with more questions than answers. It makes you wonder if you are headed in the right direction. It makes you wonder if you should be trying to push forward a little more, or if you should learn to be a little more still. There’s all this back and forth, to and fro, like waves tossing over one another in a tireless sea.

But for all that has changed, and all that has stayed the same, for every mixed feeling, and all the words that went unsaid, you are still being led into the arms of boundless peace...allowing you to rest, breathe deep, take heart, and keep going.

For in all that is missing, you do not have to miss out on the opportunity to have hope...to have hope that: you have not seen everything you were meant to see. You have not met everyone you were meant to meet. You have not done all the things you were meant to do. You have not traveled to all the places you were meant to travel to. You have seen a lot of the ocean, but there are still further depths. Take heart, breathe deep. You are far from finished yet.

Let this be the kind of hope and anticipation your soul clings to. More than you worry if the future will meet your expectations, trust that what waits in the future will go beyond what you were expecting. And not because everything will come together perfectly in the years to come, but because you chose to cultivate joy and peace in daily life, season into season, amidst your deepest doubts. You chose to believe that deeper than your doubts, was an even deeper grace, where you were allowed to walk through what you were feeling and still be led where you were meant to be.

May this beautiful truth bring you peace. May it bring comfort and wellness to your soul, amidst all of the things that are out of your control. You may not be where you thought you would be, but you are gathering the strength and courage you need to carry on for the rest of the journey. Even in your wandering. Even in your waiting. – MHN

Written for the one who sent me their story. DMS are open. Stories are kept private, and I always send you what I created for you before sharing it elsewhere.

When it's so hard to make sense of it

For anyone grieving today:

Here are two poems I sent out today to those who are grieving the loss of their mothers:

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As the days go on

it is hard to see how hope

could go on, too…

for even though

the Light pours through,

she meant so much to you,

and there is just no way of knowing

how things will look from here.

And I just hope you know

it is okay

to take this one breath at a time,

to reflect on the little things she liked,

and how she would be

so proud of you,

for after everything

you have been through,

you are carrying her strength within you

you are carrying her wisdom, hope, and courage

and you are free to tell that story.

It is so hard to make sense of this

but the beautiful thing is,

you do not have to,

you are free to slow down

in the uncertainty

and let endless grace

come find you.

Grace:

unmerited favor

that meets you where you are,

even when the world feels lonelier

even with a broken heart,

in all that has changed,

you will be found, anyway

by grace-filled peace

that lets you take this

day by day.

2

For some time,

certain memories

might feel a little delicate,

difficult to hold close

because you know they will never

be again,

and I hope

that it is then,

amidst the heart ache,

you remember just how

special she is,

and how she had a way

of drawing the Light in

in the most unexpected ways.

And things will never be the same.

You know that all too well,

but I hope you are able to hold onto

the beautiful stories you have to tell.

For even though a year has passed,

somehow, Love did last,

and you are free to hold on

to what was,

though you do not know

what is to come.

And though

your memories

feel so delicate,

they are yours

to hold onto

forever,

they are a part of

what you had with her,

and what will always

bind you together.

When you whispered the words,

“I am going to be okay”

you did not know

what you were signing up for,

but you had this inner-knowing

that Light was drawing you in

even here, on this side of heaven,

where things would never be the same

but somehow, you would still find peace,

and you would find the air to breathe

in the wild of changing things.

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And to my mom @mamamonaharper: Happy Birthday. You taught me what it means to be mindful of others who are grieving, even when celebrating. Grateful for your heart.

Living mindfully in the present

It is possible to wait hopefully for the future while choosing to live mindfully in the present. It is okay to wonder about what’s ahead without letting it consume your mind in the space you’re in right now. Everything may not be going according to plan, but today is still at hand...you are still being invited to learn here, to grow here, and to be shaped for what’s to come. You only have this moment, and I know you have heard that a hundred times, but you have also experienced worry a thousand times, and it is time to see that there is so much more to living. There is so much more to the waiting than simply worrying about the future. Make the choice to live mindfully here. Do one thing at a time. Drive or ride to work without music and listen to the music of your surroundings. Take a five minute break to just breathe without looking at a screen. Pay attention to the flavors and textures in your next meal and be grateful your body is getting the nourishment it needs.

I know you think about the future and the things you have to take care of in order to get there, but you must first learn to take care of yourself. Inhale. Exhale. Laugh. Relax. Sleep. Read encouraging words. Listen to encouraging music. Surround yourself with likeminded people. Do whatever you have to do to live mindfully, right here, in the present moment. And before you know it, you will have lived through a thousand present moments. You will realize that you’re in the moment from the future that you used to worry so much about. And your ability to live in the present will have only strengthened as you continue to wait hopefully for what’s to come.

11 year old you would be so proud of you

11-year-old you would be so proud of you. She would be so proud that after everything you had been through, you were brave, anyway. And you kept trusting in the process even when you were afraid. And even though there are so many things you have yet figure out, you still chose to do your best with you what had, right here, in the now. I know it is so hard to see, but she would be so proud. 11-year old you would be so proud.

So keep telling your story. Keep living your story. I know you feel so far away from where you thought you would be, but you have come so far, and it is entirely worth to have gratitude for where you are. Somewhere in the world there’s someone half your age who would be so grateful to be where you are today. She wouldn’t look at you the way you look at yourself. She would see a woman who has overcome so much just be where she is, and despite all that fell apart, she is an example of grace and strength.

I don’t know how you see yourself today, but I just hope you know you matter. Your progress matters. Your story matters. And no matter what someone has told you or what you have been made to feel, you can be proud of your progress. You can celebrate how you have come. You are allowed to tell your story even though it is not finished yet.

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DMs are open

Everything you see here was written with real stories in mind. People submit via my website and I write for them. I send it to them first before sharing it anywhere else. All the stories and names are kept private.

Last night, I asked people to send their names via DM and I would write their names, along with a short poem/line. Writing is therapeutic for me, and I also enjoy getting to “know” the people behind the likes and  following count. Doing this reminded me of how much I missed reading the stories in my DM! Even though it makes more sense logistically to submit via my website form, I have decided to “Re-Open” the DMs in addition to my site. I will still randomly select people from the form, but now, also my DMs. You can send / resend a full story or just “I just need an encouraging reminder.”

I have always been inspired by real stories. Thanks for the privilege of creating with you in mind. MHN

Worth waiting for

You long to be in a place

where you are no longer

having to wait for this,

where you are finally able to be free

from the worry

of what might never happen.


And on the outside,

you know you are growing,

you can see that things are changing,

day by day, year by year.


but on the inside,

there is this struggle

where you feel

you are knee deep

in stagnant waters

and even when the sun shines in

it does not seem

to shine on you,

and you feel the weight of gravity

as it takes its toll on you.


I hope that this could be the place

where you slowly begin to believe

that it is still okay to hope

and to trust

for better things.

And it will start

with the little things,

such as realizing

the beauty

of all that you are worth

without the things

you long to have,

and whatever you do receive

will only be able to add

to who you already are,

and who you are already

becoming.


So tread slowly

in these stagnant waters,

there is no need to rush here.

And please do not be hard on yourself

for all that has not fallen into place.

This world is hard enough,

and even then, you are free to know grace.


You may feel lonely,

but you are not alone

you may feel empty,

but you are whole

And in time,

you will surely meet

who you were meant to meet.

You will travel to the places

that you were meant to see.

And you will look back on this season

and be grateful

that you learned to see the value

in the smallest things,

for all of it prepared you

for where you were meant to be:

on grace and hope-filled journey,

lined in endless Light

where even in the waiting,

you learned to be alright.
You learned to believe

more was coming

and you had not seen everything yet

and though it took longer than expected,

it was all worth waiting for,

and you found that you,

yes, you,

were still worth the journey,

no matter how long it took,

or times you were overlooked,

hope was still stirring within,

and not a moment of your life was wasted.

– Morgan Harper Nichols