And there will be feelings that are hard to shape into phrases and there will be memories that are difficult and weighted, and there will always be grace rushing through you all the more...reminding you that even here, there is so much more in store.
Sometimes it’s hard to find the right words. And sometimes, even when you do, the words are hard to say.
It can also be hard to look back and try to make sense of things because you are not sure of what you will find...or, maybe you have an idea of what you will find, but it is not something you even know how to dig into.
When you find yourself in that place, know that you do not have to sort through all of this alone in your head, or even in your journal. You also do not have to avoid them. Instead, you can be kind and gentle to yourself as you seek out the best way to sort through this with a counselor, a mentor, or a trusted friend.
And if you do not have someone like that in your life right now, I hope that first, you can begin to seek what it would take to have at least one person to talk to, and secondly, know this: there are so many people who are right where you are, trying to sort through things that are not easy to put into words.
So even if you are still looking for clarity, closure, and peace, you are not alone in seeking this. In one way or another, we are all searching for those answers...many of us are still trying to make sense of things that happened in our childhood. And there is grace for each of us: glorious unmerited favor that meets us right where we are and freely gives us the room and the time to heal and carry on.